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  November 2005
volume 3 number 4
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  home   (archived)
  featured poets
  L. Ward Abel
  Rafael Alvarado
  Deborah Edler Brown
  D.J. Carlile
  Yvonne Garrett
  Marianne LaValle-Vincent
  Eric Steineger
  Evan Traiger
  Rev. Dave Wheeler
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Rafael Alvarado November 2005



    Rafael F.J. Alvarado was born in Hollywood in 1965, and has been writing poetry since he was ten. His Granduncle Luis Cardoza Y Aragon was a famous Guatemalan poet who knew people like Pablo Neruda and called them friend.
    Rafael wishes every day to write as well as his granduncle; his Grandmother Laura Cardoza Muller was also a published poet, and a big influence in his writing.
    He is currently writing poems about running marathons; he has run the L.A. & San Francisco marathons, and recently completed the Long Beach Marathon. Rafael believes there's a Zen to running; he writes about what's in the mind of the runner during long runs. He is the co-publisher of The Daisy Standard, a new arts and literary magazine that will debut in 2007, and the co-host of the a companion reading series of the same name at The Backstage Cafe in Beverly Hills.



How a Building Falls Apart

Nerves shot
Two days before
The marathon
Yesterday Mark told me he is moving out
I bully him too much
My anger comes home every night
They have cut my hours at work
Iím not liked at work
A man with dreams in his eyes
Shouldnít work a dead-end job
Or just keeps his eyes closed
Near the ones who donít dream
My girlfriend disappointed by my life
Too many things keep coming up
Those things break her down
Pull that arrow out of her heart
Make her want to leave
Almost broke
Ear infection hurts
Girlfriend in New York
Iím without her here

Want her here
Iím in San Francisco
Running my second marathon
'Cause I need to run
No rhyme no reason
Just a need

The world doesnít stop for my dreams
Instead it fights harder for me to see the distance
Between time & dreams

copyright 2005 Rafael Alvarado



Almost 40

You watch everything now closer
The sunset means more everyday
Means another day gone bye
Makes one wonder of ones youth
All that energy that went nowhere
Would one change if one knew
Who they might become
Or are we stuck becoming who we have to be

Sunrises over mountains when running
Have a new meaning
Another day full of struggle
Of wanting more
Of missing her
Knowing she had to leave
Doesnít change the fact
That the heart hurts\
To close
To everything that is a trigger
To memory
To yesterday
When all you wanted was another drink
Never realizing
How much all those drinks took away
You should never really fuck with time

copyright 2005 Rafael Alvarado




i wake up
not the best feeling
i don't run early
i get to work
its is hell
there are moments were we give up
let dreams fade
i cant even though
almost 40
i accept the high school environment
when a co-worker
complain that my hours in the dish room aren't enough
doesn't tell me
tells my boss
sort of like telling the teacher

copyright 2005 Rafael Alvarado