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  November 2005
volume 3 number 4
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Rafael Alvarado November 2005
   

 

bio


    Rafael F.J. Alvarado was born in Hollywood in 1965, and has been writing poetry since he was ten. His Granduncle Luis Cardoza Y Aragon was a famous Guatemalan poet who knew people like Pablo Neruda and called them friend.
    Rafael wishes every day to write as well as his granduncle; his Grandmother Laura Cardoza Muller was also a published poet, and a big influence in his writing.
    He is currently writing poems about running marathons; he has run the L.A. & San Francisco marathons, and recently completed the Long Beach Marathon. Rafael believes there's a Zen to running; he writes about what's in the mind of the runner during long runs. He is the co-publisher of The Daisy Standard, a new arts and literary magazine that will debut in 2007, and the co-host of the a companion reading series of the same name at The Backstage Cafe in Beverly Hills.

   

 

How a Building Falls Apart

Nerves shot


Two days before


The marathon


Yesterday Mark told me he is moving out


I bully him too much


My anger comes home every night


They have cut my hours at work


Iím not liked at work


A man with dreams in his eyes


Shouldnít work a dead-end job


Or just keeps his eyes closed


Near the ones who donít dream


My girlfriend disappointed by my life


Too many things keep coming up


Those things break her down


Pull that arrow out of her heart


Make her want to leave


Almost broke


Ear infection hurts


Girlfriend in New York


Iím without her here





Want her here

Iím in San Francisco


Running my second marathon


'Cause I need to run


No rhyme no reason


Just a need





The world doesnít stop for my dreams


Instead it fights harder for me to see the distance


Between time & dreams




copyright 2005 Rafael Alvarado

   

 

Almost 40

You watch everything now closer


The sunset means more everyday


Means another day gone bye


Makes one wonder of ones youth


All that energy that went nowhere


Would one change if one knew


Who they might become


Or are we stuck becoming who we have to be





Sunrises over mountains when running


Have a new meaning


Another day full of struggle


Of wanting more


Of missing her


Knowing she had to leave


Doesnít change the fact


That the heart hurts\


To close


To everything that is a trigger


To memory


To yesterday


When all you wanted was another drink


Never realizing


How much all those drinks took away


Time


You should never really fuck with time

copyright 2005 Rafael Alvarado

   

 

Fading

i wake up


not the best feeling


i don't run early


i get to work


its is hell


there are moments were we give up


let dreams fade


i cant even though


almost 40


i accept the high school environment


when a co-worker


complain that my hours in the dish room aren't enough


doesn't tell me


tells my boss


sort of like telling the teacher


copyright 2005 Rafael Alvarado